May 12th

Dear Tami,

I have told God that "I am His" and that I want his will for me but I can't see what His will for me is. I have 3 teenaged girls and a husband who is wonderful however not a believer. My two oldest girls have fallen away from or I should say they are living in the world more than in the spirit and do not attend church any more. Three of us (and possibly 5) in our family are battling a chronic Lyme disease and the calamities just seem to keep coming one after another. I'm so exhausted and stressed that many days I find myself vegging in from of the TV after work, even though I know I shouldn't be and should be in the word instead. I know that God is with us each and every moment but why can't I focus and snuggle up next to Him and His word? I need a lifeline! :) Any advice would be deeply appreciated.

I have not been on P4 for a while! It is good to be back. "I am yours" is such a powerful reminder to me that God is in control and I'm not. I,like the author of the Psalm, get swallowed up in my own head and my own life but when I read those words giving glory to the LORD about what is TRUTH, I feel rejuvinated in my own spirit. I choose the LORD, I am his and I choose to listen to the words of the Bible. Sometimes those choices are hard, on a daily basis, because of the world I live in and the circumstances that surround me. I hope and pray today that God would be reflected in my life as I continue to pray "I am yours".

Wow,how powerful and refreshing is the content of Psalm 119. I'm so glad that you are providing a reading and explantation with questions. I've learned so much from this Psalm and hope to share it with my Bible study group. Continue your great work and we look for more great Biblical studies. Your friend in Christ Ray S..

Lisa,

Thanks for your comments and sharing what's going on in your life. I'm not an advisor or counselor but as I read your blog today it sure reminded me of some tough times in my life and it got me thinking about how I got through them (actually how God brought me through them even though I didn't always realize He was there, in control and helping). Several years ago was one of those times. In a three month period (where BTW I had told God I am yours) I had a miscarriage, my husband was diagnosed with cancer and my mom who I take care of was diagnosed with cancer. I didn't understand what was going on and was absolutely overwhelmed, stressed and, like you, tired. There were many days where I just did what I knew needed to be done to get through. Through this all, I knew God was with me but I sure wondered about where it was all leading, what God wanted from me, was I responding correctly and that big question of what was God's will for me in the middle of these crazy situations.

I never discerned a clear answer from God during these several months of struggles and that frustrated me and made me question whether I was doing something wrong or displeasing to God. Several months later though, as my husband finished treatments and life started to regain some normalcy, it was like a light bulb went on for me. I was able to look back at that point and see that God had in fact worked wonders in my life and my husband's. Even though I didn't see it happening, I was leaning hard on God and as a result, my relationship with Him strengthened. The same thing happened with my husband and our marriage grew stronger as well.

God's timing doesn't always align with ours. The Bible tells us to wait patiently and that's hard for me even though I know it's for my good. So I tell the Lord all the things that are on my heart—good, impatient, scared, tired, whatever—and then ask Him to sustain me and grow me through it all. I try to ask others for support too. Just being able to tell someone that I'm struggling helps me, and praying with a friend or having them pray for me is a huge help, too.

Ok, I didn't mean to write a small novel here. I hope some of my experience will be an encouragement to you. And, please know that we'll be praying for you! Tami W.

This is my first time blogging after registering for P4, I cant explain but God works wonders in my life during a hard patch. Few days ago I was going through probably the hardest time in my life, everything around me was falling apart, felt like nowhere to run.But am telling you thats when God touched my heart,he spoke to me through everyone around me,and they spoke of having "FAITH", eventualy i started reading Gods word & started to think of all the people like Daniel,David ,Abraham & Joseph who beleived in God when things were very bad for them.They all had one thing in common thats FAITH in Almighty God and God in return made them victorious at the end.So like them I am determined to keep my faith in God, and that itself had freed me. Even now things haven't changed for me,problems are still there but I have FAITH in God that he will bring me out victorious at the end.For all those who are going through difficult times in life, all I have to say is have "FAITH" ,just hold on & fear not because God is our salvation & he will bring you out victorious.

"I am yours Lord" is a prayer I pray so often, a confession I make often not because God has forgotten but more a reminder for me and also to appropriate the word of God into my situation. Sometimes the devil needs to hear me say it so there is no mind game.

I also read Lisa's comments and I really want to encourage you Lisa to keep believing and holding unto God even when you have not read the word in a day, in a week because you are so stretched and stressed but I will say, get a word for the season. When I was told I could have cancer, I really did not panic, I simply said I will sort it out in the spirit before I go back to the doctors. I got a word from God in numbers 23vs.23 and it became my daily confession - in the bath, while in the car. He is working behind the scenes to sort you out. Do not relent in praying for your girls. Keep telling God about them and remind God that you indeed infused the word of God into them as kids and that the Bible says they will not depart.

I have told the Lord "I am His" when it comes to going back to school. I am going to go back to school to take some management classes. If I can handle it financially, I would like to go ahead and get a second Masters degree. But again, this is up to the Lord and His will.

Lisa, thanks for sharing about the struggles in your family right now. We will be keeping you in prayer. Tami W.

My heart is truly moved. I am yours Lord! Yes indeed, and I too pray for and believe with. That God is truly moving in each of our lives, making a differance each day, giving us more peace, love, and Joy as we study his word.
Thanks for sharing.
God is so good.